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and i think i'm boring, so if you're bored and you want to laugh at other boring people, welcome. but you don't necessarily have to tell me i'm boring though, *glances at tagboard*. sooooo, let's have a little talk about me.

Sometimes, i feel as though i'm a passerby staring from the sidewalk, pitying you but actually not doing anything much about it.
Now that i think about it, that's pretty pathetic.
I'm not supposed to be part of the audience.
I'm supposed to be part of the crew, together with you.
That's why i feel so wrong.
Why can't i do anything?

I know that these things are hard to be covered over by words and words alone.
I pride myself on being a good friend.
Perhaps that's only true during the good times, huh?
Because when the winds blow and the storms brew, here i am floating among the foam while i see you sinking with the shipwreck.
But you know what?
I don't want to do that.

If you're gonna sink, so will i.
If you're gonna be a retard and slit yourself like tickle-me-emo does, well i'm not gonna slit myself together with you but i'll slap you left and right for doing that because tickle-me-emo freaks me out.
If you're gonna ignore me for the next twenty days, i'm gonna bother you until you ask me to shut up, so i know you're no longer ignoring me.
If you're gonna leave me alone in the dirt and elope with someone else, i'll seduce the guy so you have no choice but to come back to me.
If you're gonna cry your broken heart out, i'm gonna lend you my waterproof shoulder and stitch your heart back while you're busy sobbing.
If you're gonna sit there and think and think, i'm gonna sit there beside you and keep my damn mouth shut.

I know sometimes i'm not the best of your friends.
Sometimes i dunno what to say when you present me with things like this.
I'm afraid i'll say the wrong thing and hurt you more.
But this time, i feel that my silence will hurt you more instead.
I know the advice i've given you is kinda useless and someone can make it better for you instead.
But i just want you to know:

I'm sorry for not being there for you yesterday;
I'm sorry for giving you absolute downright shitty advice;
I'm sorry for making you feel so much worse;
I'm sorry for frustrating you the whole time;
I'm sorry for brushing you as though i can't be bothered;
I'm sorry for not telling you I LOVE YOU enough times;
I LOVE YOU!

I really treasure you lots.
So i just wanna tell you that no matter what happens, i'll be by your side forever and ever.
Although i may annoy the hell outta you, or maybe you feel i don't care, but bear in mind that i'm still watching from the sidewalk, sitting quietly by your side, your cute little kristalynn.
Don't laugh.
Yes, i'm serious.
Okays.
I'll be there for you 24/7, whether you want me there for you to talk to, or simply just to keep you company while you're pondering over snippets of life.
*HUGS!*

((:
& im not gonna tell you about this post.
&& i want you to discover this yourself.
&&& i'll be here for you;;
&&&& forever and ever.
&&&&& you add COLOURS to my boring ole' life. ((:

Thursday, October 25, 2007,9:25 PM | comment | 0 comment(s)