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and i think i'm boring, so if you're bored and you want to laugh at other boring people, welcome. but you don't necessarily have to tell me i'm boring though, *glances at tagboard*.
sooooo, let's have a little talk about me.
OHMYGOSH THIS MV IS SUPER CUTE! ;DDD DA ZUI BA IS MY NEW POP IDOL <3333333>
OHMYGOSH THIS MV IS SUPER CUTE!
;DDD
houdini rasputinini felini is SCANDALOUS. i repeat myself in layman terms; FELICIA IS SCANDALOUS!
OHMYGAWSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ._.
Monday, March 31, 2008,11:05 PM |
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EVERYBODY WATCH THIS VIDEO. it's good manzxzxz! ;D done by a rvcc-er named KP! aka my brother. aahahahhaa. ;D
i have to start my C homework soon. and i haven't even done up my tutorial 1 completely yet.
C: Comclub<3s! C programming Charlesleesunfei
i don't know what i'm supposed to do now. i want to ask you about your thoughts but i don't dare to. why don't you start first? i promise i'll play along. really, i will.
Sunday, March 30, 2008,10:26 PM |
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actually yingho has quite an amazing collection of songs. but yuching has a COMPLETE 9TH WONDER OF THE WORLD collection.
by the way, i love this skin loads so i'm keeping it. now you may shut up, wong chin hong. -____________-
yup. (: i am absolutely sleepy. oh whatever.
goodnight sleep tight don't let the bedbugs bite :X
[I will be still; and know you are God.]
Saturday, March 29, 2008,11:47 PM |
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and i need to remember how to take screenshots in mac, i can't go around googling it everytime i find something unusually inspiring of some sorts.
and in an effort to instill it into me, here goes:
Shortcuts
* Command-Shift-3: Take a screenshot of the screen, and save it as a file on the desktop
* Command-Shift-4, then select an area: Take a screenshot of an area and save it as a file on the desktop
* Command-Shift-4, then space, then click a window: Take a screenshot of a window and save it as a file on the desktop
* Command-Control-Shift-3: Take a screenshot of the screen, and save it to the clipboard
* Command-Control-Shift-4, then select an area: Take a screenshot of an area and save it to the clipboard
* Command-Control-Shift-4, then space, then click a window: Take a screenshot of a window and save it to the clipboard
===== anyway. felili darling's new name is : Houdini Rasputinini Felini
WHY? coz weikai like gave both of us 3 choices of presents from italy , some bunny which is like 80% black then suddenly the face the mouth there got white patch, and two other kinds of chocs.
then wk calls it the unshaved bunny and i called it rasputin. and fel took the bunny LOL! then her nickname is felili, so called it rasputinini, with the rhyming two syllables behind. then the houdini is to rhyme. then the felini the ni is to make everything end with ni.
and there you go; HOUDINI RASPUTININI FELINI! (:
yay~ i love my darling. <3! ====
anyway i wanted to do some hardcore ranting. but some stuff alr got settled. so no point. what shall i blog about! kay. got it.
rmb that time when the rv year2s went for that I LOVE MY MOTHERLAND talk. i went for chinese bu ke with silly yunfei and FELILI. then yunfei was sitting with liguannan, so i sat with felili.
and we doodled silly stuffs. we like started drawing abstract little figures, and then we wrote down what it reminded us of. and i was commenting on the teacher's nice butt. then random felilitoot wrote: eh i realised we've been good friends for very long already.
so i was like, yeah yeah! so we decided to choose an anniversary day (: and we chose 14thFEB ;DD so boys, you'll have to wait for your turn (: HAHAHA.
and we realised that we've been like so close for almost 5 years already. *claps*
then felili started sharing with me some godly stuff. THEY'RE LIKE SO COOL. kay check this out!
what is the true meaning of BUSY? Being Under Satan's Yoke !!!
so think again before you say you're busy. are you REALLY busy? hmm. :X
next next next!
Depression. Evil. Pain. Devil.
what's the common thing among these 4 things? yup, they all have an 'i' inside. that's the point. IT ALL STARTS WITH ME. I. IT ALL STARTS FROM YOU. ==== yay (: i haven't done C yet ): grawrh.
Friday, March 28, 2008,10:50 PM |
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45 minutes to touch on some stuff. ===
today's prayer meeting was seriously seriously good. it was real fruitful. it was supposed to start at like, 2 and end at 3. but it was delayed till about 2.40 and ended at 4.
anyway. [we had a shoelace war]
BADBADBAD cherie SLAPPED me so many many times! grawrh. and naughty grace, pull people's shoelace, physical bullying! ;DD
today ernchuen has absolutely no idea what to do. ._. so we shared our testimonials. how we got saved; how God has touched us; our christian life. everybody shared a little something, although yifei (sp?) passed. i think everybody was really and truly touched by the holy hand of God, and i believe that it wasn't coincidence that brought us together as a prayer group, but was actually God's hand guiding us. and i am really grateful for that.
let me tell you my story. I was born a christian, into a christian family. i went and am still going to a nearby church in Chinatown called Fairfield Methodist Church, as you can see from my profile. it was a small church, kind of pathetic as compared to HUGE churches like CHC and New Creation. for a start, we definitely didn't have to queue for like at least an hour to get into a single service.
i grew up in that church, and i grew up with the same people i hang out with now. they're my childhood companions. so we grew up together. and although we have this program called PowerKids, that teaches simple stories about God to kids aged between 4 to 11 yrs' old, we were still young then. so whatever they tried to instill in us was, you could say, lost. as in, it goes in through one ear, and comes out through the other. so what i'm trying to say is, i grew up going to church for friends. and i guess the most saddening thing is, i didn't treasure time with God.
so yeah. during prayers, my friends and i would whisper and giggle (-____-) and during services, we'll probably be playing hangman or reading some book. the main point: there was no meaning to church.
finally, my breakthrough came when magdelene lim yunyi invited me to CHC for their easter service 2007. that was the first time i really and truly felt God's presence. they had this drama about Christ's crucification, and i like totally cried. i never realised how much pain Jesus went through for us selfish ingrates. i mean like, can you imagine, LONG, THICK NAILS HAMMERED INTO YOUR PALMS, AND YOUR TWO FEET? just a little ant bite or a grazed knee sends us flinching. can you imagine the pain, the pain Jesus went through for us? and the most ironic thing of all; we don't appreciate him.
i was so touched. and so i decided to pledge myself back to God again. but the people around you affect you don't they, and i backslided again as i continued going to FMC, my home church. and then mag invited me to emerge '07, FOP '07 etc etc. and i remember praying to God to pull me back to him. but it's so hard, so difficult to remain close with God. so finally. i went to easter service '08 with felicia. they had a drama with a different storyline, but they acted out the whole crucification thing again. i mean, that's what easter's about, right? yes i cried. and i'm not ashamed about it. this time i was touched so deeply, i cried for Jesus's pain.
everytime pastor kong asked the backsliders to raise their hand, i feel embarrassed. but then i realised, even if people laugh at you, it doesn't matter. because what they say don't matter. what God thinks matters the most. and i raised my hand. although i didn't raise it all the way up, i'm still proud of myself for raising it up. and we prayed.
i love God so so so much. christianity is not a religion, but a relationship. and i want to have the bestest best relationship i can ever have with my abba father. he made me, and i'm his child. i am proud to say that i'm a child of God.
and back to FMC. actually. i don't really like that church. :X shh. do you know why?
as i said before, FMC's a small church. a very very small church. only this recent sunday, we met 1000 people. but it's growing (:
anyway. as it is a small church, most of us know each other. we grew up together. but the point is, the people don't really worship God like they should be doing. yes i know, i was once like them. but now i've changed. it's never too late to change. but as i was saying. they don't really worship God. and it kind of irks me. i mean, a church is a house of God, just like your body is a temple of God. at least have some respect. yes i admit that sometimes i find the services immensely boring, but at least i try to pay attention. okay nvm.
it doesn't matter much actually. because i know that I LOVE GOD & GOD LOVES ME. ===
back to the subject of the prayer meeting. after the testimonials, some of us needed to leave. so the remaining of us broke up into little groups to pray for breakthroughs in RV! and that the gospel will spread like wildfire, and the RVPG will rise up for GOD! [btw, houdini rasputinini felini, don't worry! you'll get better ;D i'm still proud of you darling~]
and i forgot to mention, two new people joined us today, YU JIN the chairperson of 2K other than leeyingho and KELLY ZHANG the loudspeaker of 2K and in athletics x-country. but kelly left early :X anyway. francis prayed for yujin, and i think he was really touched. felili told he that he was originally quite reluctant to come, but i think he's very happy that he came! ;D PRAISE GOD, HALLELUJAH!
kay, after praying in groups, we gathered together and started pressing in with God. we opened up our hearts and God was truly with us. [& one heart; broken to You.] ernchuen rocks! ;DD hahaha. he prayed for us all. felili, yujin, mag, francis, roy, me.
God annointed me :DDDDDDDDDDDD hahahahaha. that we will rise up in our classes and sow the seed of God, and nurture it to grow fruitfully and that its roots will be widespread.
AMEN. (: ===
okay. i think God has rewarded me. because recently, i have been really very very angry with some people. as well as my mom. it's like, she's really *bleh* nowadays. it's as though she's pmsing or something. but who knows. hahaha.
and from CHC's easter service, we must learn how to forgive and forget. Jesus died on the cross to save us. He shed his blood for our sins. If Jesus can forgive such sinners like us, why can't we forgive the people around us? If Jesus can forgive, and you can't forgive, that makes you better than God. Which you're not. If you think you're better than God, you won't have a relationship with Him anymore because you've given yourself to the devil. Grudges and grievances will eat at your heart, bit by bit. Why let little petty things ruin your whole life? If He can humble himself to forgive our *ugh* sins, why can't we forgive others' minor faults? And when God forgives, he forgets.
yes. sometimes, when you're really angry with your parents or something, you feel like screaming and like yelling at them. they get you so darn bloody pissed off that tears well up in your eyes. and then you get even angrier at yourself because you've shown the weak side of you, and cried. you want to throw things around. you want to throw a gargantuan tantrum. but you see. you forgive. and forget. that's what i did.
think about it. if you really did throw a tantrum, if you really did scream and yell at them, if you really did throw things around, what will happen then? do you know how hurt your parents will be? i know, when you're angry at them, who cares how they feel right. but they still love you. no matter how hurt they are, they'll still love you. because you're their child. just like you're God's child. no matter how bad your sins may be, from little things such as lying to murder, God still loves you despite the pain you have dealt to his heart.
[shit i'm nagging -___-]
but anyway. yeah. so i like forgave those ppl i was angry with, including my mom. yeah i still love her and all. but i think God has rewarded me. I LOVE GOD! ;DD yay. hahaha. ==== OKAY! moving on. I HAVE FINALLY GOT MY DRUMSET! the pictures here are only thumbnails, click to enlarge (:
and introducing.. MY VERY OWN TAMA SUPERSTAR DRUMSET! ;DDDD
muahaha. it's really really pretty! (:
oh speaking of pictures. rmb a few days ago i said i'm gonna try and capture like a whole week of 11.11? here they are! ;D [again i repeat, they're only thumbnails, click to enlarge.]
SUNDAY!
MONDAY!
TUESDAY!
WEDNESDAY!
THURSDAY!
FRIDAY!
SATURDAY!
~~~ done! ;DDD muahaha
you know while i was being this ridiculous good girl and doing my yu xi, my RIDICULOUSLY STUPID chinese electronic decided that it came from Neptune and adopted a new language.
it's so stupid! waste 10 minutes of my life because i spent like 9 minutes turning the bloody thing on and off and on and off and fiddling with the buttons. and the remaining one minute for taking out the darn battery and putting it back in again.
and finally it decided it loved me more and so came back to Earth. ._. ===
I AM DEPRESSED! UGH. meien, yuching and i missed the urban deadline. BY ONE DAMN DAY LIKE C'MON! stupid stupid stupid stupid! it's like so wasted can! we spent so much time on it, and endured kp's and yuheng's criticism. and yay we missed the deadline. great! (:
we are so screwed. :X
=== but on a happier note, someone confessed to a friend of mine. btw, MAKE SURE YOU ENLARGE THIS PICTURE! ;DDD name undisclosed.
=== and on another happier note, i went out with the breakfast today! ;D
here are some UNGLAM pics; i'd appreciate it if you don't enlarge it :D
me and fran! totally unglam de me :X
UNGLAM JAYTEE! ;D way to go jie!
unglam me with starbucks straw!
they're so ugly i don't want to leave a caption. bleh.
what can i say? ;DDDD
yingytingy! ;D
i simply love my jie ;DD
as i was saying, we had starbucks. and SURPRISE SURPRISE!
WHO KNEW STARBUCKS COFFEE COULD MAKE BUBBLES ;DDDD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! THEY'RE SO CUTE YOU KNOW! HEHEHE.
unfortunately i didn't take with muffin :X and she's leaving on saturday! GRAWRH.
nvm, jayjay I LOVE YOU ;DD hahaha.
yay. drum teacher said i did my drum pieces well (: except for a few minor mistakes here and there. and then sight reading the speed was alright manzxzxz! and aural, heh. good good :D so we did boulevard of broken dreams then all the windows broke. HAHAHA JOKING ;DD
kay mom's nagging. i finally updated, bye!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008,10:10 PM |
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yay blog is almost done (: i'm gonna put up the music and my wishlist and the counters, and voila! ;D yay.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008,11:27 PM |
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i could have blogged today, but sleepy me went to sleep (:
i could have blogged now, but i need to do my homework.
i don't like to blog in bits and pieces, so the next time i blog it'll be long.
i promise :D
Monday, March 24, 2008,10:20 PM |
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hello ppl, i wanna post a one way convo between me and minghao, LOL.
here goes!
✖✖✖ - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { 梦想的彩虹就在前方// } - ; says: your sentence is all wrong!
✖✖✖ - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { 梦想的彩虹就在前方// } - ; says: fine ignore me
✖✖✖ - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { 梦想的彩虹就在前方// } - ; says: someday you will regret this
✖✖✖ - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { 梦想的彩虹就在前方// } - ; says: you will wish that you could go back in time and change that OH-SO-WRONG sentence of yours
✖✖✖ - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { 梦想的彩虹就在前方// } - ; says: and by the time you come crying to me, it will be of no use, because i would have become famous and then when i'm famous, i wouldn't have time for a little chaota fry like you
✖✖✖ - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { 梦想的彩虹就在前方// } - ; says: your sentence is all wrong!
=== okay. this is just a temporary skin. :D
Friday, March 21, 2008,11:41 PM |
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it's been two exact weeks. and i may never see you again. === can i rant first? i promise to be a good girl and update soon (: about something happy! ;D btw. i'm trying to capture 11.11 everyday for this week. whether or not i saw it by chance or purposely, i'm gonna capture it. and i've alr got monday and tuesday. it's just 3 more days. (: === y'know. i may never see patchy again. coz it's like. i was supposed to go visit him. then my mom lost her phone one day. and then she lost his new owner's number and address. so she can't contact them anymore. and it's not like they will call us or something.
i'm not the only one who's lost my dog. i know two others. the thing we all have in common; we never got to say goodbye.
why do all parents / adults / people think it's best if we don't see them go? why do you feel that we'd feel better if we didn't personally see them go away?
that's not true.
after reading jayjay's blog, i thought about stuff.
you assume that it's better that we don't see them. for our own good. you're thinking of our feelings.
but what about them? fine, they're dogs. SO WHAT MAN! they're still LIFE. they're still God's creations.
when you're all alone in this world. when it's dark and cold. when you're shivering and chills are running up your spine. when you need a hug the most. when you need somebody to tell you they love you. when you see your only friend walking away.
you know what i'll think? They don't want me anymore.
NO. i don't want him to think that way. BECAUSE. i still love him. NO MATTER WHAT. he'll always be my best friend.
i don't want him to think that i don't love him anymore. i don't want him to think that i don't want him anymore. i don't want him to get the feeling that i'm throwing him away. i don't want him to think that i'm no longer his friend.
and when he's alone in an entirely new environment. i don't know how he'll feel. perhaps dogs don't have emotions. i don't know.
i still worry for him.
2 BLOODY FRIGGIN' WEEKS. shit kristalynn, wth is wrong with you? LOL!
& i may never see him again. i was promised that he'll still be in my life-; why did it turn out to be empty?
"That's when I love you"
by Aslyn
When you have to look away When you dont have much to say Thats when I love you I love you, just that way To hear you stumble when you speak Or see you walk with two left feet Thats when I love you I love you, endlessly And when your mad cuz you lost a game Forget Im waiting in the rain Baby i love you, I love you anyway Heres my promise made tonight You can count "on" me for life Thats when i love you When nothing you do can change my mind The more I learn, The more I love The more my heart cant get enough Thats when I love you, WhenI love you no matter what So when you turn to hide your eyes Cause the movie it made you cry Thats when I love you I love you a little more each time And when you cant quite match your clothes Or when you laugh at your own jokes Thats when I love you I love you, more than youll know And when you forget that we had a date Or that look that you get when you show up late Baby I love you, I love you anyway Heres my promise made tonight You can count "on" me for life Thats when i love you When nothing you do can change my mind The more I learn, The more I love The more my heart cant get enough Thats when I love you, When I love you no matter what Thats when I love you When nothing baby Nothing you do could change my mind The more I learn, The more I love The more my heart cant get enough Thats when I love you, When I love you no matter what No matter what
11.11.11!! OMG CAN! this is like the first time i've caught it. hahaha ;DD
i am depressed now. yay.
Thursday, March 13, 2008,11:12 PM |
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it's been a week and a day since he left. and i still remember everything i used to do when he was around; because i still do them now.
right. i think i'm spending waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay beyond my budget. i have to really go on shopping hiatus, be it online or in real life. unless ppl wanna gimme moolah for my birthday, which is coming up real real reeeeeeaaaal soon! ;DD
and sylvia lam! I LOVE YOU, i will not forget that i still owe you a birthday present since 14th january. (shiaat.)
i went to chinatown today! ;DD with miss christine teo, and some CAP-ians, including averil, tseyin, yiting, and shihua. there will be 6 new people from yr2 joining us, including JEROME TAN =.= ahahahah. plus he was nominated by the teacher! *jawdrops.*
ohman. i feel the above paragraph totally didn't sound like me at all. and we, the sec 2s of river valley computer club, have started the fatal C programming lessons. AND, MIRACULOUSLY, i actually understand! ;DDD YES I DO. and i managed to PROGRAM something. as in, complete my homework lah == but i don't know whether it'll work anot coz i don't have a C compiler coz i'm using mac and borland doesn't have mac versions ==
WM WM WM WM WM WM WM. who careeeees ;D
life is short babaye. when you have the chance, make the best out of it. which includes spending out of your budget. HAHAHAH. nah i'm kidding. spending too much is a bad feeling. tsktsktsk.
tomorrow i'm going for my second c lesson. no wait, WE, the year2s of river valley computer club, are going for our 2nd c lesson tmr. from 1-4. break at around 230. ;D hahahaha.
btw. i can crack my back ;D as in like. crack as in cracking knuckles type of cracking. i just bend backwards and pop they go. woots. fun to play with ;D
HAHAHA. yiting bought the same kind of butterfly shirt as me ;D now we can play with our shirts together and be pretty butterflies ^^
and as i was saying. I BOUGHT A NEW BAG! ;D
woohoo, authentic newbie product! <3333333333333333333333s ;DDD and is super pretty. especially the ribbon, when you wear the bag, you can only see the brown ribbon. so it's like your shirt has a cute ribbon there. HAHAHA.
and just to show off my professional photography skills.. i'm not advertising kay. (:
lalalala. it's 11.56 now and tmr morning i need to go sch for geog proj. sigh. nite ppl(:
Wednesday, March 12, 2008,11:37 PM |
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i am no longer crazy over bags, because, i just BOUGHT ONE! ;DD
and i hereby declare.
that i am crazy over:
SKINNIES LONG SHIRTS / DRESSES
&
TUNIC TOPS!
muahahaha. ;DDDD
Tuesday, March 11, 2008,6:45 PM |
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Love Story by Katharine McPhee
The original:
The acoustic:
hahaha i'm in love with the song manzxzxz :D
Saturday, March 08, 2008,9:03 PM |
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rah. huishan says she'd rather watch tv coz luozhixiang's on.
anyway. my daddy, he just came back today, and he's flying on sunday again. ): he flies so often i'm already used to it, but i don't know why, but lately i've been missing him. wait i've been missing alot of people. LOL. i am feeling emotionally rawwwww. :D haha.
FELICIA TAN WEIPING! DDDDDDDDD: i next thursday cannot leh. i got cca from 1-4. HOW. uhm. friday can? :X argh. === anyway. TODAY THE WHOLE SEC2 COHORT WENT TO TOA PAYOH STADIUM TO SUPPORT RVNB C'DIV! :D but sadly we lost to nanhua high D:
in the first quarter nanhua got the lead, and then they kept the lead with rv close behind. for the second and third quarters rv was super close, almost overtaking, but always end up nanhua score one more than us. then in the final quarter rv fell way behind. so if i didn't remember wrongly, we ended rv 18 - nanhua 22. or something like that. so yeah ):
btw. in nhnb there's this girl called shaeron santosa attan, who was the GK. she and tricia are like, best friends, and they're playing against each other, LOL. hahaha.
attan is a cow that cow. tsk. ===
JESSICA JUWONO/ERCHH/MUFFIN: i love you loads kay. no matter what happens, the kookooface family/breakfast will always be there for you! me, jaytee, fran. we all love you kay. ((: so buck up, lady! :D
3rd day. D:
Friday, March 07, 2008,11:25 PM |
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Thursday, March 06, 2008,10:24 PM |
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today was the official first day i came back to a home officially without a dog. peijia meilin and tracy came for music. suddenly the space which patchy used to occupy seems so empty. DD:
040308. will never forget that day, and never will.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008,10:39 PM |
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today was the official first day i came back to a home officially without a dog. peijia meilin and tracy came for music. suddenly the space which patchy used to occupy seems so empty. DD:
040308. will never forget that day, and never will.
SCHOOL CONFESSIONS ♥ [x] Talked back to a teacher. [x] Been kicked out of class. [ ] Worn pjs to school. [x] Had your tooth fall out at school. [x] Gotten lost in your school. [x] Broken the dress code in school. [ ] Completely failed a test. [x] Left class without asking. [ ] Missed a whole week of school. [x] Thrown up in school. [ ] Been beat up at school.
HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS ♥ [x] Argue with your parent(s) a lot. [ ] Argue with your brother(s) a lot.(SUPER) [ ] Argue with your sister(s) a lot. [ ] Have your own room. [ ] Do your own laundry. [x] Cook dinner once in a while. [x] Are loud and obnoxious at home. [ ] Wear pajamas when you are not going anywhere. [x] You sleep in very long. [ ] All you do is watch television. [ ] Your parents are divorced. [x] One or both of your grandparents live with you.
FRIEND CONFESSIONS ♥ [x] You currently dislike one or more of your friends. [ ] You are jealous of one or more of your friends. [x] You have known a friend your whole life. [ ] Your friends are all taller than you. [x] You have been ditched by a friend. [x] You have memorized a friend's phone number. [x] You have lost/forgotten a friends phone number. [ ] You have been to all of your friends houses.
HABIT CONFESSIONS ♥ [ ] You bite your nails. [ ] You have an odd obsession with giraffes. [ ] You cannot sleep with the door closed. [x] You cannot sleep with the door open. [x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand.
LOVE CONFESSIONS ♥ [x] You currently like someone. [ ] You want to kill one of your exes. [x] You can stay commited for an unusually long time. [x] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf easily. [ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you a bitch before. [ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you self-centered before.
PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS ♥ [ ] You hate George Bush. [x] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal. [x] Boys make better friends than girls do. [x] The beach is an excellent place for a date. [ ] Pink is an ugly color. [ ] Needles aren't so horrible.
HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS ♥ [x] Fallen down the stairs. [x] Someone has tied your shoelaces together. [ ] Had a nail fall off. [ ] Had surgery. [x] Slapped someone across the face. [ ] Killed someone. [ ] Someone has called you a tease. [x] You have been to Europe. [x] You have worn something inside out for a whole day
he was gone even before i came back from cca. the moment i was released i was praying so hard a 51 would come immediately. when i reached home i ran to my house. and it was empty.
i didn't even get to say goodbye. i can't stop crying. i hate myself. =====
Tuesday, March 04, 2008,10:16 PM |
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Bm Who am I G That You would know me from the start D A Set me apart
Bm Who am I G That You would place eternity D A Into my heart
Em You have given to me Bm A More than this world could give G A My purpose is found in You
D A One life, I lay at Your altar G D One love, I have with You Em Touch me again D Fill me as You hold G A My outstretched hands D A One word, You know I will follow G D One heart, broken to You Em Use me again D Your mercies follow me G A For all my days
G In Your presence Bm In Your power D A Holy Spirit, I surrender ===
yesterday i went to City Harvest with huishan. we went with her cousin's cell group. F.I.R came! :D
hahaha. as usual, the praise and worship rocked. and we sang the above song. it got stuck in my head and i just can't stop singing it. even huishan, who's like a devout buddhist, said that the songs were great! AMEN. ((:
afterward, F.I.R performed. they performed a mixture of songs, from flyaway to san ge xin yuan. so it was a wide array of songs from all 4 albums. plus they shared their testimonies. they said they came last year for Emerge! HOW COME I DIDN'T KNOW DD: and i went for Emerge too! rawr.
ah qing said that before he accepted Christ, he was an introvert. shy, nervous on stage, the whole thing. but once he accept Christ into his life, his whole life changed. he became more confident, he began to have more faith in himself. he believed in himself, he trusted his voice, because he had God. Amen!
This is the true power of God. Nothing is impossible for him.
anyway. sitting beside me were these two F.I.R fanatics. it's perfectly normal to be in love with F.I.R, they're so good. :D but they were super rude. because they came late, praise and worship had already started. the minute they came in, they remained seated. i thought, perhaps they just came in, they needed time to cool down and settle first. but throughout the whole praise and worship, they didn't stand once.
it so happened that after praise and worship was F.I.R's performance already. then when they came out, only ah qing and faye came, the two of them started screaming and stuff. i was, stunned. haha. yes i totally love F.I.R, but i don't like, idolize them or whatever. they started waving their posters and their latest album. and no matter what song F.I.R sang, they sang along. no lah no lah, screamed along. ugh, it was horrible! bleargh.
after F.I.R's performances, they like. died. for service, for pastor's acceptance prayer, for anything else. they remained seated. and during sermon, they were reading their magazines. about taiwanese pop groups and all. i was, like kinda disgusted by their behaviour. this IS a church after all. it IS the house of God. and if i'm not wrong, they're actually cell members. not newcomers to CHC.
plus plus. huishan's cousin yiling. she doesn't pray. yes i'm serious. because we reached early, so we went for the prayer meeting. and they had this prayer list. then a few of her cell members got together to pray, then she didn't. so i asked her about it. and she said, "Oh i don't pray." i was like, uh? oh okay. LOL. and then i was asking her about praying in tongues, and similarly she was like, "Oh i don't pray in tongues." STUN. hahaha.
but the message was real good. here's the crux of it all:
Before you can be anything else of higher ranking, you must start from being a servant and serve others. Because in the end when you go to heaven, God isn't going to welcome you by saying, "Welcome, my good and faithful CEO." or "Welcome, my good and faithful General Manager." God is going to say this: "Welcome, my good and faithful servant." If Jesus himself can humble himself to do a job that only the lowliest of all servants do, which is to wash the feet of his disciples, why can't we?
Servanthood is the key to Promotion. Servanthood is the key to Authority. Servanthood is the key to your Destiny.
==== And here's a song from Emerge '07 which stuck i my head till now. The lyrics can be found under my tagboard under my wishlist and is entitled Breathe.
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WHO AM I THAT YOU WOULD KNOW ME FROM THE START SET ME APART WHO AM I THAT YOU WOULD PLACE ETERNITY INTO MY HEART
YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME MORE THAN THIS WORLD COULD GIVE MY PURPOSE IS FOUND IN YOU
ONE LIFE, I LAY AT YOUR ALTAR ONE LOVE, I HAVE WITH YOU TOUCH ME AGAIN FILL ME AS YOU HOLD MY OUTSTRETCHED HANDS ONE WORD, YOU KNOW I WILL FOLLOW ONE HEART, BROKEN TO YOU USE ME AGAIN YOUR MERCIES FOLLOW ME FOR ALL MY DAYS
IN YOUR PRESENCE IN YOUR POWER HOLY SPIRIT, I SURRENDER
Sunday, March 02, 2008,9:55 PM |
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okay. even if i'm sad, i shouldn't drag the whole world into Great Depression Version 1.1 with me. so in an attempt to make people feel better, here are some nonsensical rubbish. :D ===== MEILIN(: says: (10:54:16 PM) I LOVE YOU OKAY
MEILIN(: says: (10:54:20 PM) if you think of me
MEILIN(: says: (10:54:23 PM) you will think of patchy
MEILIN(: says: (10:54:28 PM) when you think of patchy
MEILIN(: says: (10:54:30 PM) you will think of me
MEILIN(: says: (10:54:36 PM) all things are interconnected
MEILIN(: says: (10:54:44 PM) connectivity depends alot on accessibility
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:55:35 PM) ohno not geoggggg :X
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:55:38 PM) *faints*
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:55:41 PM) @,@
MEILIN(: says: (10:55:42 PM) CPR
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:55:47 PM) EWWW
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:55:48 PM) IM AWAKE
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:55:50 PM) OKOK :D
MEILIN(: says: (10:55:52 PM) 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5
MEILIN(: says: (10:55:55 PM) KISS KISS
MEILIN(: says: (10:55:57 PM) LOL
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:55:59 PM) EEEEEEEEEEEEE
MEILIN(: says: (10:56:03 PM) *molests krist*
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:56:05 PM) ugh
MEILIN(: says: (10:56:09 PM) *krist screams*
MEILIN(: says: (10:56:15 PM) *molester runs away
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:56:30 PM) *BRINGS MOLESTOR BACK*
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:56:39 PM) slaps molestor
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:56:50 PM) *SHOUTS KWONG MEILIN IS A COWWW*
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:56:59 PM) and krist runs away to eat her oreo cookie :D
[c=1]✖✖✖[/c=#3997F4] - KRISTALYNN ;D_ & { everybody go away. } - ; ♥ { & the editor } † one way! says: (10:57:04 PM) ahaha
MEILIN(: says: (10:57:34 PM) *molester snatches cookie and eat it* ====== anyway. rmb i said that during game theory i was doodling on my foolscap? well here's the overview of what i said:
(a drawing of a cockle, or something that looks like it) this is a cockle. it is also called a lala. do you eat lala? i don't eat lala. because lala is disgusting. lala has blood. so i don't eat lala. lala is bad. it makes you laosai. so lala is bad. lala is bad = i don't eat lala.
(drawing of an oreo cookie) this is an oreo cookie. do you eat oreo cookies? i eat oreo cookies. oreo cookies are bad. because they also make you laosai. but they have cream in it. so i eat oreo cookies. but they are still bad. oreo cookies are bad = i eat oreo cookies because they have nice nice cream.
(uses pen to slash lines all over the paper) ok the end :D ==== you know one day, as i was cleaning patchy's poo, i was reminiscing. in those days..
when i was like still very young, like around 3 yrs++, i didn't know how to clean my butt after i pooped. so everytime my mom would have to do it for me. then i rmb there was this once, when my mom and i were in the same cubicle, and i was shitting. when i was done, my mom was like wiping my ass for me. then she has to throw the tissue into the toilet bowl what, so duh she has to look into the bowl itself. upon looking in, she exclaimed, "Wow, your poopoo very long leh." then i looked in as well, and LO AND BEHOLD, a 30 cm long piece of shit was lying inside it! AHAHAHA. no 30 cm is just an estimation :D
here's another case: there was another instance when i was older, and able to clean my own butt this time. i was in a separate cubicle from my mom. then after i was done, i was like opening the door. but it was stuck. so i was like calling out to my mom, "MUMMY! The door stuck!" then my mom and i were like conversing by talking loudly. finally my mom say, "Eh darling, check whether you turn the correct way a not." so i tried turning the knob the other way.. and it worked. LOL! coz we were conversing by like almost shouting but not yet loud enough, when i came out, a lot of people were like looking at me. hahaha. but i was still young, nevermind. :D
and another one: when i was very very very young, i think my mom was in malaysia for some business thing. so my daddy brought me out. and sadly, i vomitted. although i don't know why. so my daddy brought me to the men's toilet, and washed my shirt for me. then while he was drying it under the hand dryer, i was like hiding behind my daddy. and every guy that came in, stared at me and i was like staring back at them. LOL. okay end of story.
Saturday, March 01, 2008,10:56 PM |
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yesterday for cca, we went to the singapore science centre for GAME THEORY! :D it was given some Dr Manjit (whatever his name is). and lo and behold!
i fell asleep.
which provided sylvia and meien LOTS OF ENTERTAINMENT. coz i was sitting in between them. actually before the seminar started i was doodling on my foolscap paper about cockles and lala and oreo and constipation. then the speaker started speaking, and it caught my interest for awhile. then my eyelids started to droop.. lower.. and lower.. then lam sylvia poked me with a pen. like, into my ribs there. HARD.
duh i was like. suddenly sitting up super straight. IT HURT ALRIGHT. stupid lam sylvia pokes HARD. ugh. i was rubbing my side and trying to listen to the guy speak when i started getting sleepy again.
oh yeah. this time to wake me up, MEIEN & LAM SYLVIA (the evil twins) DREW ON ME. like, with a pen and all. they DOODLED on my ARMS. note that it's in plural. if you guys haven't forgotten, i was in between them. so that explains why i was DOODLED on both arms. tsk. and as usual. LAM SYLVIA'S DOODLES hurt MORE; coz her pen is like. 0.38. WHICH IS DAMN THIN, THE TIP. WHICH HURTS LIKE UGH.
then i folded my arms to protect my exposed and doodled arms from more doodling, especially from someone who owns a stupid 0.38 uniball pen. and i fell asleep yet again. hohoho. THIS TIME i almost DIED. *drum roll* i was FLICKED on the right cheek by LAM SYLVIA'S METAL FINGERS. it damn bloody HURT can. and you think my left cheek was spared? oh no you don't. MEIEN SLAPPED ME. ugh. now you know how painful my life is.
well i learnt my lesson. after that TORTUROUS ORDEAL, i managed to stay wide awake after that. and even for staying awake, lam sylvia "accidentally" scratched me with her blasted 0.38 pen. ugh. stupid.
now the whole rvcc except for yr1s have to do a 150 word reflection about game theory. which i missed 3/4 of. grawr! so now i don't know what i'm gonna do.
after game theory actually we wanted to go play with water at the waterworks. but apparently none of us except sylvia thought of the fact that if we got our outsides (clothes) wet, our insides (underwear) will get wet too. and none of us brought extra :D well, we didn't wanna walk around with wet insides, so we decided to forfeit the water playing. we trooped straight to JEC for dinner tgt, then went to change into club tee so that we can go arcade. but some of us got caught :X so we went to take NEOPRINTS! :D
it was super fun! WE LOVE RVCC LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS! <33333333333333333333333333 all 12 of us squeezed into a single booth and almost died. hahahaha! but yuching left early :X yuching, don't worry, I STILL LOVE YOU! ((: anyway, some unfortunate stuff happened in the neoprint shop. BUT. LET'S NOT WORRY ABOUT THAT FOR NOW. woohoo.
after neoprints, meien and i went back, coz it was alr 630++. yup. and on the mrt we were chatting about the JI escapee. O.O alrighty. end of yesterday! === okay. i'm gonna be emo from now. today's saturday. which means my mom's colleague came to take a look at patchy. well. my mom's colleague, her daughter, and her father came. my mom's colleague's father's gonna be the one who's gonna look after patchy.
anyway. they played and patchy and stuff. then when my mom asked her colleague's dad whether he liked patchy, he said yes. so i guess you guys out there know what that means.
they (my mom and her colleague) started talking about the transferral of papers and ownership and stuff. like in front of my face. and it's like. suddenly my mom's colleague asked her, "Can your daughter bear to give him away?" and my mom answered, "No, of course not! But we've been talking about giving him away for about a year already, and she finally consented."
HELLO. yes, i know i have stated that i'm trying not swear. so i won't. but PLEASE. if i had really given my consent, do you think i'll be in tears over him? do you think i'll spend so much time begging my friends to take him? do you think i'll waste my breath trying to convince you to let me keep him? DO YOU REALLY THINK SO?
when i heard that blasted sentence, do you know how i felt? i don't know too. but i know it hurt.
i know you guys reading this out there is probably thinking what a retard i am for brooding like this over some dog. well whatever. this dog means alot to me so if you're not happy reading this then go away. i have come to a stage where i don't care how many hits i get or how much money i can earn from this blog. hence explaining the absence of the adverts. because this is MY blog, and i shall say what i want. this is my diary, and i'm motivated to write in it because it's online. i can't stand writing in stupid little books about my day. so get lost if you don't like what you're seeing, because i'm already kind enough to allow you into my privacy. i don't care what you think. because patchy's my bestest bestest bestest best friend in this whole wide world. BLEH.
wellwellwell. whatever! back to the topic.
and from what i overheard, my mom's colleague is probably gonna come abduct patchy on tuesday. past 6. everything's gonna go with him, his favourite toys, his cage, his treats, everything. what use have i got for them anyway. well they carry memories. memories that will cease to exist one day. ha ha ha.
they're coming on a tuesday. it's a cca day. which means i might not get to even say goodbye to him. past 6. i don't know past 6 when. i'm so afraid i won't even get to play with him one last time.
they say i can visit him. so? he won't be my dog anymore. he'll be someone else's. and he won't recognize me as his owner. he'll recognize me as a stranger.
do you know why patchy's my bestest bestest bestest best friend in this whole wide world? because no matter what happens, whether i'm rich or poor, ugly or beautiful, mean or kind; he'll always love me unconditionally. there won't be catfights, dogfights, whatever. there won't be backstabbing. and when i need someone to talk to, about things that i can't talk about to my friends, he's there. plus he won't tell ((:
it's a very cold day today! brrrr. tomorrow's sunday. i'm going to church, then to art class. then comes monday. i'll be in school the whole day to do music. and comes tuesday. i'll waste the day in school, plus cca. and then? when then comes, i'll see. it'll the the first day in 5 years, that i'll come home to a quiet house.
i don't know. maybe it IS my fault. those 5 years. perhaps if i could just rewind everything; he wouldn't have to go.
i don't know what else to say.
"Hi, my name is Kristalynn. I have a dog called Patchy and i love him a lot. I can't describe him because he's indecribable and he loves me unconditionally. He loves to lick me and he likes people to pat him. He rubs his nose against people because he wants them to pat him. He's my favourite dog in the world!"
if i cry in the next few days in school, please bear with me.
i want a hug so bad D:
& i may never get this chance again; goodbye.
I'll never forget you; i love you lots :D
AND i'll be strong in the name of the Lord, because i know he is beside me and holding my hand right now, in my time of need. Amen.
i want: a horse i eat: mark & spencer's chips i hate: cockroaches i love: my bed i drink: starbucks i live for: God i play: cafe world i am: kristalynn i say: hi ^^
