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and i think i'm boring, so if you're bored and you want to laugh at other boring people, welcome. but you don't necessarily have to tell me i'm boring though, *glances at tagboard*. sooooo, let's have a little talk about me.

Now I know why I've been wasting my life away -.-

Watch my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
yeah

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me

I've been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin' out of my mind
In endless circles
runnin' from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

And I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me somethin' to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head

Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
All that's left
Yeah, yeah, yeah
What's left of me

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just runnin' in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Of me
Just runnin' in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me
Take what's left of me

Heheh I think every post's gonna have a blockquote already ^^

Okay tmr's my math test WISH ME LUCK KTHXBYE.

Labels: Math, Nick Lachey

"Right now I feel guilty to be alive. Why? Because I’m wasting it. I’ve been given this life and all I do is mope it away."

Labels: Life

Hi Kelly Zhang Ye Yi :D

Labels: birthday, Kelly

Hi :D

Labels: Blockquote, Smses

HAHHAHAHAHA THIS IS A BIG JOKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D :D :D





Anyway this is for Pei Jia ^^

Labels: pictures

When you say too much about anything important, it always ends up sounding more trivial than it is. Words trash it.

After all, you can only be in a bad mood for so long before you have to face up to the fact that it isn’t a bad mood at all. It’s just your sucky personality.

"Life sucks, then you die."

=/

Labels: Thoughts

Dear God,

Labels: Pieces, Prayer, Sum 41

Hi had a great day out with Sylvia today :D Caught up a lot and I realised actually I'm a really funny person HAHAHA.

Anyway I totally (L) this quote I got from TV Mobile on 175.

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free, and discover that the prisoner was you."

SHIOK NOT. Wah I damn tired now ttytmr.

Labels: Plaza Singapure, Sylvia

Tomorrow's Monday already, it's going to be the start of another hectic, crazy, feel-no-better week.

I hope I don't mind. I don't want to. This irks me. To no end.

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight.

[edit]

WLAO I FORGOT MY PASSWORD FOR EBAY AGAIN ZZZZZ.
THIS IS THE 4TH TIME I'M RESETTING IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway I wrote this in Sec 1 and it's in my September archives. And I think it's really good! O:

"I tried so many times to get you to look into my eyes
but how often have you ignored my plea?
I stare at you with a loving gaze
but 'Who are you?', states your decree.
I smile at you day and night
regardless of myself,
but you turn to look away
at someone else in fact.

I keep holding on
to the little flame that flickers,
but for every drop of wax that burns
a drop falls as my tears.
I think of you when I wake
I think of you when I doze
you think of me when you're in need of help
you think of me for a cause.

maybe it's time for me
to give up and move on
but I just can't forget you
I don't want to regret my decision every dawn
so I think to myself, perhaps, just perhaps
if I could just stay and wait a little while more
maybe it will pay off and open for me a bright new door."

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Labels: FM Static, Monday, Tonight

Ok I have been inspired by Averil Soh so (HAHAHA SOH/SO) here's my very own boyfriend list! :D

My boyfriend MUST LOVE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1. taller than me
2. have some semblance of good looks (already very low liao leh "some semblance")
3. love Starbux too!
4. loving but not sticky
5. love music!

ABLE:
1. to cook/bake
2. to play some instrument (i.e. piano/guitar/drums/bass/etc not like frenchhorn/clarinet -.-)
3. to fix my stuff for me when they get spoilt (which is very frequent)
4. to teach me math/physics :D

DO:
1. go somewhere and play guitar/whatever and sing to me :D
2. bake/cook something for me
3. take care of me
4. study with me and make sure i actually study
5. go shopping with me and let me makeover him ^^
6. give me useful opinions
7. do sweet stuff even though it's not costly (sentimental value what!!)

DREAM DATES:
1. rock concert :D
2. watch sunset
3. zoo!!!!!!!!! (so that i can feed goats)
4. farm visits (yio chu kang area)
5. picnic w me
6. hanging out at each other's homes doing nothing
7. anyhow making over each other
8. sing together/jam together
9. go orchard road at night and be part of all the couples rendezvousing there LOL
10. go to the beach
11. fly kite

Shizz how come my list seems so short hahahahha. I can't think of anything more leh ):

I AM IN AN AEROPLANE OVER THE SEA~

Today had awesome fantanananananananatastic date w Averil Soh Tim Chickapop Hui.
Went to bugis ^^ explored area around bugis, explored bugis, and explored the buses around bugis hahaha. Took 175 in the wrong direction almost went to geylang! Took 33 back to Tiong played Cooking Mama read Teenage + Seventeen I LOVE YOU BABE (L)!!

I heart AVERIL!

Labels: Averil, Boyfriend

I was stupid enough to think that you'd care,

Don't you think so?

I can't believe myself sometimes.

Oh just get it over with,

Tonight.


Please.

Labels: Idiot

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

Labels: Lifehouse, Whatever It Takes

Hiieeex.
I think I've posted this image up before, but whatever, hahax. Blehx.

I tell you, I am really damn suay lehx. My rashes came back, blehx. Super uncomfortable nehx.

(Guess who I'm imitating ^^)

Anyway!!!!!! Back to my rashy self again, -.-
I'm supposed to help Little Miss Magdelene Lim advertise her stuff that she's desperate to get rid of 'cos she's in need of cold hard cash right now, so y'all better buy from her 'cos she owes me $40!!!!!!

HAHAH, anw here it is: Fin De Siecle
Make sure you go patronise her ah!!!!


Ok I'm sleepy slept at only 2am last night thanks to the RASHES arghhhhhh WHY MEEEEEEE HUWR NP RNP9R23UHCOQUVNIFGH APH Q3[9M!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: Advertisement, Rashes

Mood:
Confused like I can't tell my As from my Bs and my Cs anymore, what more the Ds.

Maybe I'm just not up to it, not good enough, not strong enough, not worth it.
Maybe I don't deserve it at all.
I'm sorry.

Labels: Sorry

Here's to many more happy wonderful MTV memories that will never fade even though it'll be years and years after our fantastic Malang experience! Hope you've had a vunderful birthday heh heh and I'm sure you love me loads x 10000 lightyears 'cos I love you more than that! Make sure you don't pangseh us anymore whenever we organise our outings! To more camwhore pix, more neoprints, more hanging out as us girlfs, cheers! :D

Labels: birthday, Jiawei

Have you ever wondered maybe that everything you held in the palm of your hand was simply nothing but a disillusion, just like someone sees an oasis in the middle of the blistering heat of a desert. When the mirage, or in my case, my life, is my deepest, darkest desire, my longing in a time of desolation and maybe a heavenly relief from the misshapen plane that is reality.

And then when you just want to escape from the harsh truth of it all, you get pulled back in, wait, dragged back in and hurled into the infinitely many bottomless pits that really, really, really, never seem to end no matter how loud you cry, how hard you struggle, how desperate you are, until there comes a time when you finally realise, that nothing, nothing is going to work.

You gave in, you gave up, but still! They never, ever let you off, do they? You're entrapped in their grasp for all eternity. You claw and claw with bare fingers, trying to break through their flawless hold, and obviously you fail. Just when you're about to just let go, somebody, a light, shines. A revelation. You're not alone anymore.

Suddenly, the light brightens, if that was even possible, and all you see is light; blinding, glittering, endless gold. It's like nothing you've ever seen before. You think, hey if this is how I'm going to die, I don't think I actually mind. How naive. Because out of that wonderful, glorious light that just comes and comes, steps out a smile.

That's when you see actually see the light, the sudden realisation that this isn't the end. There's more to come. Hope awakens in the very depths of your exhausted soul, and it stirs your heart. You get reacquainted with your emotions once again, and you get to know faith. A beautiful, beautiful faith.

You stretch out your hand as far as you can, that look so plain on your face so heartbreaking. A child, so innocent, so undeserving of all this pain. Your eyes settle upon that smile you witness, the soulful orbs longing for a relief. And you're not disappointed. Never.

The smile embraces you with warmth and love, and you just sob uncontrollably because this was what you've been waiting for all along. What you've never known, but have always wanted, craved, needed. Something powerful, beautiful, but in its very innermost essence, a white so pure you feel ashamed.

You think it's the end of it, that you've been through enough, that you don't deserve anymore because you've been through so, so much, and you think that you're saved. How gullible. Every end, is another's beginning.

And it happens. All over again.

By the time it comes to a pause, your heart's broken, shattered into a million red, shiny fragments, lost in the fray of despair, guilt, shame, and pain that was gripping your core so tight, that was the final straw. All that's left are the pieces, the leftovers, the unwanted.

When what you're experiencing is painful beyond words, when all that's happening is the hell you wished you'd never encounter, when you want to give up and let go and fall in but circumstances simply don't allow, where there's no room for mistakes but that's all you seem to be making lately, when everybody casts a disdainful glance at you and the only place you feel welcomed is a dark, isolated corner, when all you want to do is run away, far far far off to somewhere where you can just be who you really, and just is.

You can't play on broken strings.






TONG. says: (10:08:56 PM)
kristalynn,

TONG. says: (10:09:01 PM)
i find your dp very distracting


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Labels: The End