45 minutes to touch on some stuff.
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today's prayer meeting was seriously seriously good.
it was real fruitful.
it was supposed to start at like, 2 and end at 3.
but it was delayed till about 2.40 and ended at 4.
anyway.
[we had a shoelace war]
BADBADBAD cherie SLAPPED me so many many times!
grawrh.
and naughty grace, pull people's shoelace, physical bullying!
;DD
today ernchuen has absolutely no idea what to do.
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so we shared our testimonials.
how we got saved; how God has touched us; our christian life.
everybody shared a little something, although yifei (sp?) passed.
i think everybody was really and truly touched by the holy hand of God, and i believe that it wasn't coincidence that brought us together as a prayer group, but was actually God's hand guiding us.
and i am really grateful for that.
let me tell you my story.
I was born a christian, into a christian family. i went and am still going to a nearby church in Chinatown called Fairfield Methodist Church, as you can see from my profile. it was a small church, kind of pathetic as compared to
HUGE churches like CHC and New Creation. for a start, we definitely didn't have to queue for like at least an hour to get into a single service.
i grew up in that church, and i grew up with the same people i hang out with now. they're my childhood companions. so we grew up together. and although we have this program called PowerKids, that teaches simple stories about God to kids aged between 4 to 11 yrs' old, we were still young then. so whatever they tried to instill in us was, you could say, lost. as in, it goes in through one ear, and comes out through the other. so what i'm trying to say is, i grew up going to church for friends. and i guess the most saddening thing is, i didn't treasure time with God.
so yeah. during prayers, my friends and i would whisper and giggle (-____-) and during services, we'll probably be playing hangman or reading some book. the main point: there was no meaning to church.
finally, my breakthrough came when magdelene lim yunyi invited me to CHC for their easter service 2007. that was the first time i really and truly felt God's presence. they had this drama about Christ's crucification, and i like totally cried. i never realised how much pain Jesus went through for us selfish ingrates. i mean like, can you imagine, LONG, THICK NAILS HAMMERED INTO YOUR PALMS, AND YOUR TWO FEET? just a little ant bite or a grazed knee sends us flinching. can you imagine the pain, the pain Jesus went through for us? and the most ironic thing of all; we don't appreciate him.
i was so touched. and so i decided to pledge myself back to God again. but the people around you affect you don't they, and i backslided again as i continued going to FMC, my home church. and then mag invited me to emerge '07, FOP '07 etc etc. and i remember praying to God to pull me back to him. but it's so hard, so difficult to remain close with God. so finally. i went to easter service '08 with felicia. they had a drama with a different storyline, but they acted out the whole crucification thing again. i mean, that's what easter's about, right? yes i cried. and i'm not ashamed about it. this time i was touched so deeply, i cried for Jesus's pain.
everytime pastor kong asked the backsliders to raise their hand, i feel embarrassed. but then i realised, even if people laugh at you, it doesn't matter. because what they say don't matter. what God thinks matters the most. and i raised my hand. although i didn't raise it all the way up, i'm still proud of myself for raising it up. and we prayed.
i love God so so so much. christianity is not a religion, but a relationship. and i want to have the bestest best relationship i can ever have with my abba father. he made me, and i'm his child. i am proud to say that i'm a child of God.
and back to FMC. actually. i don't really like that church. :X shh. do you know why?
as i said before, FMC's a small church. a very very small church. only this recent sunday, we met 1000 people. but it's growing (:
anyway. as it is a small church, most of us know each other. we grew up together. but the point is, the people don't really worship God like they should be doing. yes i know, i was once like them. but now i've changed. it's never too late to change. but as i was saying. they don't really worship God. and it kind of irks me. i mean, a church is a house of God, just like your body is a temple of God. at least have some respect. yes i admit that sometimes i find the services immensely boring, but at least i try to pay attention. okay nvm.
it doesn't matter much actually. because i know that I LOVE GOD & GOD LOVES ME.
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back to the subject of the prayer meeting.
after the testimonials, some of us needed to leave.
so the remaining of us broke up into little groups to pray for breakthroughs in RV!
and that the gospel will spread like wildfire, and the RVPG will rise up for GOD!
[btw, houdini rasputinini felini, don't worry! you'll get better ;D i'm still proud of you darling~]
and i forgot to mention, two new people joined us today, YU JIN the chairperson of 2K other than leeyingho and KELLY ZHANG the loudspeaker of 2K and in athletics x-country.
but kelly left early :X anyway.
francis prayed for yujin, and i think he was really touched.
felili told he that he was originally quite reluctant to come, but i think he's very happy that he came! ;D
PRAISE GOD, HALLELUJAH!
kay, after praying in groups, we gathered together and started pressing in with God.
we opened up our hearts and God was truly with us.
[& one heart; broken to You.]
ernchuen rocks! ;DD hahaha.
he prayed for us all.
felili, yujin, mag, francis, roy, me.
God annointed me :DDDDDDDDDDDD
hahahahaha.
that we will rise up in our classes and sow the seed of God, and nurture it to grow fruitfully and that its roots will be widespread.
AMEN. (:
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okay.
i think God has rewarded me.
because recently, i have been really very very angry with some people.
as well as my mom.
it's like, she's really *bleh* nowadays.
it's as though she's pmsing or something.
but who knows. hahaha.
and from CHC's easter service, we must learn how to forgive and forget.
Jesus died on the cross to save us.
He shed his blood for our sins.
If Jesus can forgive such sinners like us, why can't we forgive the people around us?
If Jesus can forgive, and you can't forgive, that makes you better than God.
Which you're not.
If you think you're better than God, you won't have a relationship with Him anymore because you've given yourself to the devil.
Grudges and grievances will eat at your heart, bit by bit.
Why let little petty things ruin your whole life?
If He can humble himself to forgive our *ugh* sins, why can't we forgive others' minor faults?
And when God forgives, he forgets.
yes.
sometimes, when you're really angry with your parents or something, you feel like screaming and like yelling at them.
they get you so darn bloody pissed off that tears well up in your eyes.
and then you get even angrier at yourself because you've shown the weak side of you, and cried.
you want to throw things around.
you want to throw a gargantuan tantrum.
but you see.
you forgive.
and forget.
that's what i did.
think about it.
if you really did throw a tantrum, if you really did scream and yell at them, if you really did throw things around, what will happen then?
do you know how hurt your parents will be?
i know, when you're angry at them, who cares how they feel right.
but they still love you.
no matter how hurt they are, they'll still love you.
because you're their child.
just like you're God's child.
no matter how bad your sins may be, from little things such as lying to murder, God still loves you despite the pain you have dealt to his heart.
[shit i'm nagging -___-]
but anyway. yeah.
so i like forgave those ppl i was angry with, including my mom.
yeah i still love her and all.
but i think God has rewarded me.
I LOVE GOD! ;DD
yay.
hahaha.
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OKAY!
moving on.
I HAVE FINALLY GOT MY DRUMSET!
the pictures here are only thumbnails, click to enlarge (:
and introducing.. MY VERY OWN TAMA SUPERSTAR DRUMSET! ;DDDD
muahaha.
it's really really pretty! (:
oh speaking of pictures.
rmb a few days ago i said i'm gonna try and capture like a whole week of 11.11?
here they are! ;D [again i repeat, they're only thumbnails, click to enlarge.]
SUNDAY!
MONDAY!
TUESDAY!
WEDNESDAY!
THURSDAY!
FRIDAY!
SATURDAY!
~~~
done! ;DDD muahaha
you know while i was being this ridiculous good girl and doing my yu xi, my RIDICULOUSLY STUPID chinese electronic decided that it came from Neptune and adopted a new language.
it's so stupid! waste 10 minutes of my life because i spent like 9 minutes turning the bloody thing on and off and on and off and fiddling with the buttons. and the remaining one minute for taking out the darn battery and putting it back in again.
and finally it decided it loved me more and so came back to Earth.
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I AM DEPRESSED! UGH.
meien, yuching and i missed the urban deadline. BY ONE DAMN DAY LIKE C'MON!
stupid stupid stupid stupid!
it's like so wasted can!
we spent so much time on it, and endured kp's and yuheng's criticism.
and yay we missed the deadline.
great! (:
we are so screwed. :X
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but on a happier note, someone confessed to a friend of mine.
btw, MAKE SURE YOU ENLARGE THIS PICTURE! ;DDD
name undisclosed.
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and on another happier note, i went out with the breakfast today! ;D
egg - fran
muffin - jayjay
sausage - yingytingy
milk - jaytee
bacon - ME! ;DD
here are some UNGLAM pics; i'd appreciate it if you don't enlarge it :D
me and fran! totally unglam de me :X
UNGLAM JAYTEE! ;D way to go jie!
unglam me with starbucks straw!
they're so ugly i don't want to leave a caption. bleh.
what can i say? ;DDDD
yingytingy! ;D
i simply love my jie ;DD
as i was saying, we had starbucks.
and SURPRISE SURPRISE!
WHO KNEW STARBUCKS COFFEE COULD MAKE BUBBLES ;DDDD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
THEY'RE SO CUTE YOU KNOW! HEHEHE.
unfortunately i didn't take with muffin :X and she's leaving on saturday!
GRAWRH.
nvm, jayjay I LOVE YOU ;DD hahaha.
yay.
drum teacher said i did my drum pieces well (:
except for a few minor mistakes here and there.
and then sight reading the speed was alright manzxzxz!
and aural, heh. good good :D
so we did boulevard of broken dreams then all the windows broke.
HAHAHA JOKING ;DD
kay mom's nagging.
i finally updated, bye!
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